eugh, life sucks ballz right now niggaaa.
i'm finally over that douche and i FINALLY like someone new
and now someone i never expected to like me does?
i'm so confused i need to get away from all of this stuufff!
plus im in the process of moving AND quitting cheer
THERE IS SO MUCH STRESSSSSSSSSS.
helplease? :]
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008 (:
To let go isn't to forget, not to think about or ignore. It doesn't leave
feelings of anger, jealousy or regret. Letting go isn't about winning
or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear and
it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking
memories or thinking sad thoughts and doesn't leave emptiness,
hurt or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't
about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the
memories, to overcome and move on. It's about having an open
mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing
and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made
you laugh, made you cry and made you grow. It's about all that you
have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having
the courage to accpet change and the strength to keep moving. Letting
go is growing up. it is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the
most potent remedy. To let go is to clear a path and set yourself free.
Learn. I need to learn this. Too bad, I can't.
ANYWAYS (:
I'm going to Jenny's house today! This is going to be so much fun.
And...very interesting. You'll see. I'm so happy I get to see Joe today!
And Jenny, of course, and we plan on sneaking out, hopefully I won't get
caught like I did at Cecilia's house.
Peace niggahs. <3
feelings of anger, jealousy or regret. Letting go isn't about winning
or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear and
it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking
memories or thinking sad thoughts and doesn't leave emptiness,
hurt or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't
about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the
memories, to overcome and move on. It's about having an open
mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing
and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made
you laugh, made you cry and made you grow. It's about all that you
have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having
the courage to accpet change and the strength to keep moving. Letting
go is growing up. it is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the
most potent remedy. To let go is to clear a path and set yourself free.
Learn. I need to learn this. Too bad, I can't.
ANYWAYS (:
I'm going to Jenny's house today! This is going to be so much fun.
And...very interesting. You'll see. I'm so happy I get to see Joe today!
And Jenny, of course, and we plan on sneaking out, hopefully I won't get
caught like I did at Cecilia's house.
Peace niggahs. <3
Friday, November 28, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008 (:
Good evening! (:
Hmmm, well today was a pretty boring day! I haven't done anything goshdarnit. I really should be doing my homework, but no I'm too involved in other priorities right now haha (:. Lately I feel like I am growing apart from many of the great friends I've made over the past few years and even the ones the I've made this year. I've been going through a rough time because my father abandoned me when I was 10 and when he tried to come back into my life he just ruined it. But I guess that's not a good excuse for taking my emotions out on other people, and I understand that. Well, my grandpa came over today and he was being so mean to me and like criticizing me about everything I do because of some things my mom told him. I don't know, it just really made me feel bad. I feel like i should have my own reality show. Haha. Like a True Life show or something. Everyone always tells me I should have my own reality show and now I know why they say that. Oh yeah, by the way, that picture up there? Yeah, thats California, my future home. <3
Hmmm, well today was a pretty boring day! I haven't done anything goshdarnit. I really should be doing my homework, but no I'm too involved in other priorities right now haha (:. Lately I feel like I am growing apart from many of the great friends I've made over the past few years and even the ones the I've made this year. I've been going through a rough time because my father abandoned me when I was 10 and when he tried to come back into my life he just ruined it. But I guess that's not a good excuse for taking my emotions out on other people, and I understand that. Well, my grandpa came over today and he was being so mean to me and like criticizing me about everything I do because of some things my mom told him. I don't know, it just really made me feel bad. I feel like i should have my own reality show. Haha. Like a True Life show or something. Everyone always tells me I should have my own reality show and now I know why they say that. Oh yeah, by the way, that picture up there? Yeah, thats California, my future home. <3
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Hello (:
Well, today was an alright day. Except for the fact that I found out my idiotic ex told his ex bestfriend my biggest secret. Thanks you douche. Anyways, my Thanksgiving was pretty good. Yumm, so much food! I'm so sad, tomorrow is Black Friday and I'm not going to be shopping ):. Haha, but yeah, I don't really have any plans for this weekend. I kind of like spending time with myself to get my head straight and stuff, you know? That's all for today (: <3
Well, today was an alright day. Except for the fact that I found out my idiotic ex told his ex bestfriend my biggest secret. Thanks you douche. Anyways, my Thanksgiving was pretty good. Yumm, so much food! I'm so sad, tomorrow is Black Friday and I'm not going to be shopping ):. Haha, but yeah, I don't really have any plans for this weekend. I kind of like spending time with myself to get my head straight and stuff, you know? That's all for today (: <3
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Wednsday, November 26, 2008 (:
Hello (:
Well today's the first time I've written a blog so...hi (: Well...I guess I'll talk about what happened today. Haha actually today was pretty boring, so I will talk about my past. So, there was this boy. I liked him very very much. And i still do of course. but I don't really like to express my feelings for this boy. This boy breaks my heart all the time. I've liked this boy since the very beginning of 8th grade and I haven't taken my eyes off of him ever since. He is simply indescribable. He's everything that I have always wanted in a guy. But the problem is, I've already had two chances with him, and i ruined both. I'm able to say that those two moments were the most regrettable moments in my entire life. He is so amazing. I think about him almost every second of every day. This boy, well, he's in love with my best friend. I'm in love with him. I think he knows. Actually, I know he knows. He's perfect in my eyes, and he is the only boy I can ever see myself being able to grow old with. I miss him. I miss him a lot more than you think. Sometimes when I think about him, I cry. I cry myself to sleep. And when i see him with her, my heart breaks. We actually used to be very close, the best of friends and everything changed from there. Well, if he ever does read this...he needs to know that I am not over him, nor will i ever be.
I am incredibly in love with you. <3
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